Life, again...

It's ok guys, I'm back again at least for now... As usual, life sucks. Simply put I have the usual problems. Life sucks, I know. School is not going well. If I had something meaningful to do, I would drop out in a second. I really don't see the end of this going well. And even after I hypothetically graduate I don't have the slightest damn clue what I would do for a job... Yeah...

So first of all, I finally understand why college is the best time of your life. While I know none of this is good for me, for some reason drinking a bit too much, making pancakes and zucchini casserole, watching Witchblade and generally not giving a damn is kinda fun. And I am pretty sure it doesn't get any better than this unless I get freakishly lucky and win the lottery or something.

So the meat of today's argument is this: So, if you have friends that do things that are wrong you either go along with it or not say anything you are wrong too... In this argument "wrong" constitutes things like drinking too much or sleeping with one's girlfriend. Not that I think these things are good, I just don't think that I have any right to tell people that are friends of mine that they have to do certain things or have to not do certain things.

The problem here roots in a certain "close friend" of mine who is unable to come to terms with this. Basically I don't know what the fuck to do. So at this point in time, I am not able to rationalize an argument. But simply put, watch the above video and tell me YES, or NO. Then we'll talk.

~joel

Update on proposed Houston Planned Parenthood

General Contractor Identified

The general contractor for the remodel of the building at 4600 Gulf
Freeway, owned by Planned Parenthood of Houston & Southeast Texas,
has been identified. Upon renovation this building will be the
largest free-standing abortion center in the Western Hemisphere.
The general contractor is:

Main Office
Meyerson Builders, Inc.
1770 St. James Place, Suite 509
Houston, Texas 77056

Contact Jerry Meyerson

Telephone: 713.355.4443
Fax: 713.961.2830
E-mail: jerry@meyersonbuilders.com

Central Texas Office
Meyerson Builders, Inc.
P.O. Box 523
Flatonia, Texas 78941

Contact Sandy Meyerson

Telephone: 361.865.3302

In a respectful way, please call, e-mail, fax and write to both
offices. Then forward to your family, friends, church and business
community.

State your opposition to the remodel of the building at 4600 Gulf
Freeway into a late-term abortion center where unborn children will
be killed in their mother's womb through six months of pregnancy
(25 weeks). State that abortion hurts women in both a physical and
psychological way and destroys families.

Let Jerry Meyerson and Sandy Meyerson know that you will be passing
this information on to your family, friends, church and business
community.

Texas Families Against Planned Parenthood
P.O. Box 301094
Houston, TX 77230
Phone: 713-395-1330

Email: staff@houstoncoalition.com

You can make a secure on-line donation by going to http://www.texasfamilies.org/.
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Houston Coalition for Life, P.O. Box 301094, Houston, TX 77230

The Politics of Silence

Today dear readers (however few and far between you may be...) I pose you a not-so-hypothetical question. Suppose you are a young man who brings his fiancée home to visit his family, who lives hundreds of miles away and who he visits only infrequentsy. During the course of a multiple day visit the young woman feels completely ignored by one of the parental parties involved, to an extent which makes both the visitors feel uncomfortable and unduly stressed. The offense appeares to be both deliberate and intentional.

Upon seeking advice from outside parties, recommendations have been made to simple never go home to visit again, at least until there is an indication that the antagonizing party has a chance of heart. The young man doesn't particularly like this idea, but unless he can find a way to open a discussion with all involved and mediate an amicable solution this will probably be the course of action taken.

Should you be presented with this situation, what would you recommend?

Iris

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.

Pulling Through

So... I think that this time I'm actually going to make it. I'm on track for the 80 hour pay period that I need, and I'm going to have the $200 that I need for the wedding account. I feel like I'm in debt up to my eyebrows, but I can work through that. Had a new experience today though... a new low. I had to ask a friend to borrow $50 so that I could make the necessary payments on wedding expenses. I have never felt so broke. I have been living off of random canned food and macaroni for the last two weeks. I've only gone out once and haven't eaten out in forever. I have a small pantry here at work, with things like cream of mushroom soup and canned corn that I live off of. Just what I can microwave here at work to keep from starving.

On a related front, I finally got my new refrigerator a couple days ago. It took two months and I had to send a written notice to my landlord that I was going to take legal action to break my contract if they didn't fix the refrigerator and the flea problem. Still no official word on the pest control situation, although the owners said on Tuesday that they were going to set something up with ABC pest control to spray/fumigate the place. They, however, have not returned my calls Wednesday or Thrusday, so if I haven't gotten any indication that they did something by Monday, I'm turning in my second written notice. Then they have until the end of the week to fix it before legal things start happening. Living in the ghetto definitely sucks. Oh well... hopefully things will get better. At least I feel like some progress has been made.

But if anyone feels like donating $50 to a good cause, I have one particular debt that needs to be repayed posthaste...

it can get worse

So apparently it can get worse... I just got off the phone with Jessica. Everything should have been over. I don't know how we're still together but she gave me another chance. The two conditions were that I take the last measures with my landlord to allow me to break the lease if nothing is fixed within the next few days, and I have to take 200 out of my next paycheck to cover wedding expenses. I don't really know how that's going to work but I will most likely have to pawn my gun. I hate to see it come to this, but I am more than willing to part with my gun if I can keep her. I know I haven't been the best lately, mostly because I've been really depressed. I don't exactly know what will happen in the future. I absolutely need to find a way to fix my finances. a full 80 hour paycheck in a couple weeks will definitely help, but thats a long way off and it will only get me so far. I have faith that something will turn up.

And if you do happen to read this Jessica, I definitely am serious about the peace corps application and would still love to do that with you after we get married.

Rock Bottom

If this isn't hitting rock bottom I don't want to know what is. I have absolutely no money... every account I own is negative. I owe way too much money. I've been functionally homeless for a month due to a flea infestation at my apartment. I haven't done everything that I could to force the landlords to take care of the problem, but I've asked them several times to do something and nothing has happened. It's taken them two months and I haven't even got a refrigerator yet. I want out of my lease but I have no place to go and definitely no money to get one. I don't have any money to pay my bills. I'm overdue on rent for my storage unit and I'm about to be overdue on the electrical bill. I haven't been working completely full time, usually averaging around 30 hours a week. Because of this I have't been able to give as much money to Jessica to pay for wedding bills. She is very frustrated because of the lack of money, and we had a big fight about it last night and I don't even know if we're still together now. So, last night I was really depressed and went to Northgate to spend more money that I didn't have increasing my depression. I returned to the house of a friend of mine who is currently out of town to spend the night. Fortunately for you, my readers, I am leaving out most of the bloody details. Then, the next day (to make everything better) I wake up to the sound of someone trying to force open the door downstairs. I'm still hungover at this point and had no idea. The intruder then proceeds to force open a window downstairs and come in. I pulled a knife and waited upstairs. Fortunately it was just my friend Phil, trying to get inside to find some papers for another friend, but it was incredibly embarassing to have someone walk in on you when you're staying at someone's house without permission (simply because I had nowhere else to go). I don't know what to do now. I need to come up with several hundred dollars quick, but with my account negative I don't know how much of this next paycheck I'll even be able to use. Jessica wants 200 dollars for wedding bills, I'm going to be about 100 in the hole in my bank account due to overdrafts, and the whole paycheck is not more than like 350 to begin with. That fifty dollars isn't even going to buy me food for the next two weeks let alone pay any of my bills. And I don't even get paid until Friday. I just don't see how I can make it out of this alive...

Falling Slowly

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly Lyrics

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

Houston Coalition for Life Press Release Regarding Planned Parenthood's Forthcoming Expansion

HOUSTON COALITION FOR LIFE
P.O. Box 301094
Houston, Texas 77230
Phone: 713-395-1330
Email: staff@houstoncoalition.com

Press release from Houston Coalition for Life: Your help is needed!

Please go to http://www.texasfamilies.org/ as soon as possible and let your opposition to Planned Parenthood's expansion in Houston be known by adding your name to the statement you will find on the home page. Then forward this e-mail to your family, friends and e-mail list.

By attaching your name to this statement you will then automatically receive further action items that you can participatein concerning Planned Parenthood's expansion in Houston. The e-mails with new action items that you will receive will come from Texas Families Against Planned Parenthood.

"Texas Families Against Planned Parenthood" is the name that many pro-life groups from across Texas have agreed to work under regarding this expansion.

Yesterday, a public notice educating the business community on Planned Parenthood's expansion was faxed by Texas Families Against Planned Parenthood to 678 general contractors throughout the Houston Metropolitan area. To read this statement cick here.

For those of you hearing about this for the first time, Planned Parenthood of Houston & Southeast Texas purchased a 7 story, 78,000 square foot building at 4600 Gulf Freeway (I-45 and Elgin) in Houston. This building, after being remodeled, will be the largest free-standing abortion facility in the Western Hemisphere where, as per Texas state law, unborn babies through all 9 months of pregnancy can be aborted.

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Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing; that you may abound in hope, and in the power of the Holy Ghost. -Romans 15:13

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Conscious of the great power of prayer, the Houston Coalition for Life maintains a peaceful and prayerful presence coupled with sidewalk counseling at Planned Parenthood's abortion facility in Houston. Planned Parenthood is the largest abortion provider in the U.S. and the largest abortion rights advocacy group in the world. In Houston they are the largest abortion provider with an average 25 abortions daily, six days a week--one-third of Houston's daily average of 77 abortions. By praying for and lovingly offering alternatives to mothers and women approaching Planned Parenthood, both mother and child can be spared the exploitation of abortion.

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The life saving work of the Houston Coalition for Life is only possible because of the faithful and generous financial support of numerous people and churches. You can make a secure on-line donation by clicking here. Your generous one-time contribution or your pledge of monthly support is sincerely appreciated.

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Wishing for fall... (and some quick cash)

We are officially in the doldrums of summer. It's hot as hell outside, and boring as hell inside. Summer in College Station can be a great break from the stresses and crowds of your typical semester, but after a few weeks you almost start going nuts. There are not many people around during the summer, and not much at all to do here.

My options for daytime activities are pretty much dictated by financial and academic needs: I go to class and I work. Not much else. When I'm not too completely broke I sometimes take a bit of time off for lunch and walk to Northgate, but lately I've been coming down on the short side of my bank account and lunch money has been hard to come by. As I don't have a working refrigerator in my apartment (long story that I'll get to later at some point) I don't have many options for packing my own lunch. This means that I rarely eat lunch. (Or breakfast for that matter).

After dinner it's pretty much either studying, watching a movie, or Northgate. Finances again become a pretty strict limiter for number of times a week that I can go out. Simply put I'm bored out of my mind. My job is less than engaging, my class is not that interesting, and my bank account makes it difficult for me to do much else. Don't you love summer?